I’d been navigating liminal spaces of varying degrees for a long ass time in relation to my business (very) expensive hobby. Finally, in mid-spring of 2026, I could no longer deny that the path I’d been heading down for years was no longer working (and never really did), and I found myself questioning whether I even wanted to be online and in business at all.

Life feels like a high-stakes ping-pong game right now. I recently shared that I was in a deliciously liminal space (can you say oxymoron?!). Well, that deliciousness was short-lived. I felt a panic attack arising in my chest during a work meeting on Wednesday, only an hour after I'd gotten off an emergency call with my therapist. The trigger: a combination of my employer's new mandate to fully embrace AI in ways that I can't avoid…

Something I struggle with ALL THE FREAKING TIME is that I'll throw myself into a new project—with wild abandon, no less! — and then completely reverse course (or even drop it altogether) a short while later. I have been reflecting on it all and recognized a pattern that underlies many of my abandoned projects.

Several days ago, I learned about a years-old incident involving two of my teachers that felt like a gut-punch. The alleged incident violated both of my criteria, and I spent close to a week struggling to reconcile it and decide how (or if) I want to respond. This post is about how I navigated things.

I used to be a people pleaser — especially in my romantic relationships — and would shape-shift myself to meet others' expectations, even when it meant betraying who I was. This post is about breaking the cycle of people pleasing by getting to the root of the issue: remembering who you are, living in integrity with your true nature, and setting boundaries.

“As you move closer and closer to pure integrity, as the windowpane of your mind grows more and more transparent, you will begin to love everything, and it will be obvious to you that everything loves you back.” — Martha Beck